It was challenging to stay in an "angelic" frame of mind today. The cable/phone company kept me on the phone for almost three hours total, in four different conversations. The child in me was so upset that she didn't get her quiet time. The controller in me was upset that I couldn't control the mistakes they kept making. The caretaker in me was frustrated because neither the shop, Bill, nor Brit could reach me when they phoned. I was spinning. I was watching myself. I caught myself from falling over the edge.
So I just stopped. Tomorrow is another day. At least one phone line is working. I didn't really lose it. I don't have to be in control. I just like it better that way.
I'm learning.
Namaste
Oh my -- giving up control - what a direct path to peace of mind and serenity!
ReplyDeleteYou stated it so eloquently - maybe the time will come when it's not your preference to be in control:>))
Love,
T